Kill Your Darlings 2013

In 1944, Allen Ginsberg arrives at Columbia University in New York City as a wary, inexperienced freshman, quickly finding himself drawn into a tight circle of young, hungry minds who want to redefine literature and rebellion. Early on, he crosses paths with Lucien Carr, an unruly, magnetic figure who clings to anti-establishment beliefs and seems to see the world as a stage for personal transformation. Ginsberg soon learns that Carr’s place at Columbia is kept not by the rules of academia, but by the intervention of a powerful, troubled man: David Kammerer, a janitor-professor who ghostwrites Carr’s term papers and exerts abusive pressure to secure Carr’s continued enrollment. Kammerer’s possessive, predatory relationship with Carr casts a dark shadow over Carr’s academic and personal life, chilling the air around their fragile circle.

As Ginsberg spends more time with Carr, the orbit expands to include the ambitious, restless writers who will soon be celebrated—and feared—for challenging the status quo. He meets William S. Burroughs, a man already deeply immersed in experiments with drugs and the boundaries of conventional morality, and Jack Kerouac, a sailor who has been expelled from Columbia and is hungry for new forms of expression. Together, this group begins to form a loose yet fervent literary movement they call the New Vision, an insurgent response to the rigid laws, institutions, and even their own professor Steeves. The energy is electric: late-night discussions, streetwise camaraderie, and a shared belief that art can break free from tradition. For Ginsberg, the friendship also unlocks an intimate complicity he hadn’t anticipated, as his feelings toward Carr grow warmer and more complicated, blending mentorship with something deeper and more personal.

Under the surface of camaraderie and creative fervor, tension simmers. Carr breaks away from Kammerer, drawing Ginsberg into his effort to sever the hold Kammerer has on his life and his papers. With Carr’s plan in motion, Kammerer retaliates in a brutal, shocking way that changes everything: he lures Kerouac’s cat into a frightening situation, a stunt that Kerouac discovers and rescues in the dead of night. The incident marks a turning point, intensifying the precarious bonds inside this fragile group and setting a chain of events that no one can fully control.

The group’s next steps take them toward a shared dream of escape and adventure. Carr and Kerouac attempt to join the merchant marine together, hoping to travel to Paris and immerse themselves in a world of writing, philosophy, and possibility. But a confrontation between Carr and Kammerer erupts in violence, and Kammerer is killed by stabbing. Carr is arrested, and the careful balance of their fragile world begins to unravel as public scrutiny and legal peril loom over everyone connected to the case.

With Kammerer dead and Carr under arrest, the burden falls on Ginsberg to bear witness in a way that could salvage his friend—or destroy him. Carr asks Ginsberg to write his deposition, and the writer is initially reluctant, torn between loyalty and the fear of exposing a much deeper truth. Yet as Ginsberg uncovers crucial evidence about Kammerer’s past and his relationship with Carr, the nature of the tragedy becomes clearer. He composes a powerful deposition piece, a testament to the emotional reality of what happened, which Carr rejects as “fiction.” Carr pleads with Ginsberg not to reveal it to anyone, fearing that the truth could ruin him during the ensuing trial.

Part of the story that the deposition helps illuminate is a revelation from Carr’s mother: Kammerer was the first person to seduce Carr when he was much younger, back in Chicago. This contextual detail complicates the courtroom narrative and adds a layer of complexity to Carr’s self-defense claim. After the trial, Carr testifies that the attack occurred in self-defense, asserting that he acted only to protect himself from a predatory violence that had haunted him for years. Despite this defense, the case unfolds with nuance and ambiguity, and Carr receives only a short sentence for manslaughter rather than a murder conviction, a verdict that feels both shocking and somehow consistent with the tangled web of relationships that preceded it.

Back at Columbia, Ginsberg completes the term paper that has the potential to redefine his future and that of the entire group. He submits The Night in Question, a stark, emotionally resonant account that captures the raw, human dimensions of the events. The piece becomes the focal point of the controversy surrounding his own future at the university: he faces possible expulsion, a choice that forces him to confront what kind of writer—and what kind of person—he wishes to be. In a bid to protect the integrity of his own voice, Ginsberg chooses the path that could end his formal academic career, even as it leaves behind a manuscript that embodies a truth he believes in.

Ultimately, the narrative circles back to the moment when Ginsberg must decide whether to align with conventional expectations or to pursue his own path as a writer, driven by a conviction that art can and should bear witness to lived truth. The university’s response arrives in the form of a challenge—expulsion or establishment—and Ginsberg steps away from the typical path, taking with him the manuscript that could have defined his future. A short time later, the promise of encouragement surfaces in the form of a note that accompanies the typescript, hinting at a future where he is urged to pursue writing despite the upheaval of his current circumstances.

This story—rooted in a historical, charged moment—brings to life a constellation of young writers who would go on to shape a generation. It is a portrait of ambition, vulnerability, and the cost of choosing one’s own voice in a world that often resists such rebellion. The film uses a restrained, contemplative tone to chart a journey from scholarly beginnings to a broader, more controversial artistic awakening, inviting viewers to weigh loyalty, truth, and the enduring hunger for creative freedom.